Amazingly it wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be to hold him as he took his last breath in this world, I had to be there because I have been there for just about all of his life’s tragedies and he has been there for plenty of mine. I haven't been able to focus at work and have only been working 1/2 days. The what if's keep playing in my mind and I just keep reminding myself it was for the best but this is turning out to be a bigger loss than I ever expected. So I decided I just need to write about it. I got 15 years of stories I could share, times spent playing and snuggling ♥
I love him beyond anything I imagined possible and will miss his spirit dearly.
I miss how when it was bedtime I would say, "let's go to bed" and he would meow and jump up to his favorite spot next my pillow. It never failed he was my sleeping buddy for the past 15 years. I can barely remember a night that he wasn't insisting I put my hand under his head before he would settle down and we fell asleep.
Words can barely describe how I feel. We got to have our last hang out party in the car listening to some tunes before we gathered our things and went inside the vet on wednesday.
You know he was rescued by best friends animal sanctuary and I was blessed with the care of his litter when they were just days old. I remember their little eyes were not even open yet and they had lost their mother so began the bottle feeding every two hours until they could eat on their own. I got homes for all of them but Lucky see he was born missing a back leg and when he was just 5 weeks old one of his littermates scratched his eye damaging it beyond repair and it had to be removed. He was just plain Lucky, we called him Wookie most the time. That was 15 years ago and it really feels like it was just yesterday I was holding him to make sure he finished his bottles of milk. I often think he didn't consider himself a cat most the time because he was so young when I took him in we were the only parents he knew, Dan and I
Day 3, the silence is deafening and there aren't any messes to clean up.
